Sometimes I question whether we should have had a child at all. I know it sounds terrible, but I feel like Bella has just had a miserable time. Nothing seems to go her way. First, we had a week in the NICU due to sugar levels and possible bowel obstruction. OK, we got through it. Two and a half months later, she develops a food "allergy", or more her digestive system doesn't develop at the proper rate to handle regular breast milk or formula. We got through that, too. At four months, she stops gaining weight. We figured out the food problems, and we got through it. Six months, delayed physical development. We aren't out of the woods yet, but we work on it everyday. Also at six months, "Oh hey mom! I hate solids. I'm only gonna eat this disgusting formula." Again, we're working on it.
Well, now we've made it to nine months old and I was pleased that my sanity is still in tact, mostly. Obviously, that wasn't meant to last. Now, after 7 months of rapid growth, Bella's head circumference has gone from being in the 5-20th percentile to being in the 97th percentile. While initially I thought that this was just weird that her head had grown so fast, I quickly came to terms with what it really could mean. It helped that our doc mentioned that she would need an MRI, so this could possibly be a very serious thing. To give you an idea of the rapid growth, here's the percentiles she has been in for head circumference at each well baby visit:
Birth: 13%
2 months: 1.7% (no clue what happened there)
4 months: 56%
6 months: 79.7%
9 months: 97%
I could care less if Bella has a big head, that's not a big deal. But it isn't the fact that her head is large that concerns her doctor, it's the fact that it has gone up 80% since birth. Normally, a child's growth in any respect (height, weight, or head circumference) will grow at a curve and stay relatively close to the same percentile range. I was always around the 50th percentile as a baby. My niece's head has always been 75% or more. So, having a growth like this is slightly alarming. Alarming enough to run tests.
At first, I thought that I wasn't worried about the MRI itself. I was more concerned about the fact that Bella will need to be sedated. Getting anesthesia is always a scary business, because you can't be sure if there will be no problems. Then I started thinking more about the implications of what this rapid growth could mean. There's always a chance that its just an odd occurrence and nothing is wrong. Steve's head is big, so it wouldn't be a surprise for her to have a large head. However, we don't really know how fast his head grew or if he just always had a larger head.
After browsing the internet for possible answers, I found a few articles that suggest a rapid growth like hers could be an early indicator of autism. Not many studies have been conducted on this topic yet, but the results of the ones that have occurred have shown a correlation between the two. OK, this I can cope with. I know that it wouldn't be easy, but it would sure be a welcomed alternative to my other guess: a tumor. To me, a tumor could fit this. Bella has now shown an accelerated head growth. She also has a history of delayed motor skills. I don't think that her cognitive skills are behind, but I suppose you can never really be sure as they are less easy to detect than the physical skills. Now, none of these things are direct signs that she could have a tumor, thankfully, but none of them help rule it out.
Unfortunately, I get to stew on these thoughts and concerns for at least another 2 weeks, probably more. I will hopefully get a call later today with a scheduled MRI, then I can look forward to waiting another week or so after that until we get the results back. I've learned over the past few months, that you can't take anything for granted. You are never guaranteed an easy ride in anything. If you don't have any problems, then that's wonderful! If you do, take it a day at a time. Don't expect anything, because nothing is set in stone. The best you can do is know what can happen and hope for the best.
Rich words coming from me....I'm finding it very difficult to stay positive anymore.
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Ooo, new car!
New cars are exciting right? Well, yes and no. You have a brand new toy to drive around and get used to, but, at the same time, you just spent a lot of money. Steve and I just spent a lot of money. It was kind of a necessary evil. We bought the car for two reasons: we needed a vehicle with more trunk space and we needed a vehicle that could easily fit two car seats in the back seat. We looked a minivans and trucks mostly. I wanted a Sienna. I really wanted a Sienna. However, we would need to buy one used because they cost a pretty penny. While I can totally live with a used car, it just depends on how used it is. The 2009 we say was pretty used. Things were already falling apart, like a piece of the passenger seat door armrest. And it had an old, crusty french fry on the floor. I was quickly turned off of that van.
We also looked at Kia Sedonas. Kia is known for having cheap vehicles (in both senses of the word), but the Sedona got some good reviews and had good crash test ratings. Well, Steve really thought that van was a POS when we test drove it. Not to mention, it was just as much as a new Sienna. Where's the value in that? It didn't take long to nix the Sedona off of our list.
The other car we looked at was the Mazda 5. Now this is a mini minivan. It seats 6, but not very comfortably. So where is the appeal. If you aren't going to haul around extra people all the time, you fold down those back two seats and you have loads of storage space! Another appeal is that the two middle row seats are captain's chairs. They can be moved forward or backward for however much space you'd like to have and they can lean back for napping as well! For us, that's where the car seats go. We can push the seats back to leave more room for the rear facing infant seat. Something that appealed to me was that the Mazda 5 isn't a big car. It's between the size of a Toyota Camry and Avalon. I know this because my mother and sister have these cars, so I could compare. I like that fact because that's around the size car I'm used to driving. Overall, this car had the things we wanted without being overkill. So, it won the buy a car battle!
Although, it is going to be interesting to make car payments now, Steve is smart with money and I'm more than willing to listen to him and work out a plan on how to save money (which we really have already done). In the meantime, I'm going to enjoy my pretty new car, who I named Perry. Yes, I named him after Perry the platypus, because Perry the platypus is really freaking cool! Soon enough, my new mom car is gonna be full and that's OK. When the kids reach elementary school and extracurricular activities, Steve and I will reevaluate the minivan situation. Because I can tell you right now, I'm ready and willing to be the mom who helps haul the kid's friends around for fun times! We'll see, though, in 5 years :).
We also looked at Kia Sedonas. Kia is known for having cheap vehicles (in both senses of the word), but the Sedona got some good reviews and had good crash test ratings. Well, Steve really thought that van was a POS when we test drove it. Not to mention, it was just as much as a new Sienna. Where's the value in that? It didn't take long to nix the Sedona off of our list.
The other car we looked at was the Mazda 5. Now this is a mini minivan. It seats 6, but not very comfortably. So where is the appeal. If you aren't going to haul around extra people all the time, you fold down those back two seats and you have loads of storage space! Another appeal is that the two middle row seats are captain's chairs. They can be moved forward or backward for however much space you'd like to have and they can lean back for napping as well! For us, that's where the car seats go. We can push the seats back to leave more room for the rear facing infant seat. Something that appealed to me was that the Mazda 5 isn't a big car. It's between the size of a Toyota Camry and Avalon. I know this because my mother and sister have these cars, so I could compare. I like that fact because that's around the size car I'm used to driving. Overall, this car had the things we wanted without being overkill. So, it won the buy a car battle!
Although, it is going to be interesting to make car payments now, Steve is smart with money and I'm more than willing to listen to him and work out a plan on how to save money (which we really have already done). In the meantime, I'm going to enjoy my pretty new car, who I named Perry. Yes, I named him after Perry the platypus, because Perry the platypus is really freaking cool! Soon enough, my new mom car is gonna be full and that's OK. When the kids reach elementary school and extracurricular activities, Steve and I will reevaluate the minivan situation. Because I can tell you right now, I'm ready and willing to be the mom who helps haul the kid's friends around for fun times! We'll see, though, in 5 years :).
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Symptoms
When you first see your OB for your first pregnancy, you generally start to hear one phrase over all others: "Every pregnancy is different." Why do doctors, friends, and family start to tell you this? Because it is 100% true. Already, I know for a fact that not everything about your subsequent pregnancies will be exactly the same. For instance, I had very little nausea with Bella. This time, at least one meal a day, I get sick the moment I put food in my mouth. Thank heavens my doc believes in medicating a pregnant woman with the appropriate drugs so that she can survive the rough parts of pregnancy. The medicine they give me helps a ton.
There's also the fact that growth alone will cause your pregnancy to be different. I've said it before, but I'll say it again, I already look like I did at 15-17 weeks last time. I am now 10 weeks. I've started to show quickly, so I've had the growing pains more quickly as well. You know those cramps and twinges that come with your uterus rapidly doubling in size over and over again. To get an idea, your uterus doubles in size by somewhere around the 10th week in most first pregnancies. You can't even tell a woman is pregnant by then, and that thing has already doubled! In a lot of cases, ladies don't start having growing pains until after that doubling point. Well, I think its safe to say that I'm past that.
Then there's the moodiness. Things that normally wouldn't bug me, bug me. For instance, during our trip to Tulsa, we talked about what a crunchy mom is. The more I thought about it, the term just really bugs me. When you think about it, the style of parenting isn't crunchy, that makes the parent sound abrasive. It's more of a natural style. Those moms and dads do things in a more natural way, just as parents would have had to do centuries and even millennia ago. Although, some of these moms and dads can be abrasive about their beliefs, so can parents with other parenting styles. Its bugged me enough that I'm sticking with natural mommy, not crunchy mommy (besides, they aren't peanut butter either....).
Another aspect of moodiness is the weeping. Oh yeah, I cry like a little girl, often. ESPECIALLY if you put a medical show on that either deals with children, infants, or birth. It also doesn't matter the age of the child. So long as they are talking about a mother or father and their child, I get weepy. This honestly just never left. After having Bella, I became more emotional about things like weddings and birth and hardships. I couldn't go a day with out watching a baby show and getting teary eyed. I started to get a bit better about it, but by May, that was over. I was back to weepiness!
There are loads of symptoms I have yet to deal with, like back pain that has nothing to do with me picking something or someone (Bella) up. Or the intense heartburn that comes with having no room for your food to work itself out in. Then there's the best symptom of all that doesn't usually cause a mommy pain but joy instead: fetal movement! I know not every mom is with me on this one because often times, baby kicks mommy in the ribs or the stomach or the bladder, but for me, it is my absolute favorite thing about pregnancy! With the annoying, pain in the butt stuff comes the wonderful, stop-in-your-tracks-and-smile stuff. Its only a matter of time until I get to re experience all of these things (most likely), but I think I'm ready for it. BRING IT ON BODY!
There's also the fact that growth alone will cause your pregnancy to be different. I've said it before, but I'll say it again, I already look like I did at 15-17 weeks last time. I am now 10 weeks. I've started to show quickly, so I've had the growing pains more quickly as well. You know those cramps and twinges that come with your uterus rapidly doubling in size over and over again. To get an idea, your uterus doubles in size by somewhere around the 10th week in most first pregnancies. You can't even tell a woman is pregnant by then, and that thing has already doubled! In a lot of cases, ladies don't start having growing pains until after that doubling point. Well, I think its safe to say that I'm past that.
Then there's the moodiness. Things that normally wouldn't bug me, bug me. For instance, during our trip to Tulsa, we talked about what a crunchy mom is. The more I thought about it, the term just really bugs me. When you think about it, the style of parenting isn't crunchy, that makes the parent sound abrasive. It's more of a natural style. Those moms and dads do things in a more natural way, just as parents would have had to do centuries and even millennia ago. Although, some of these moms and dads can be abrasive about their beliefs, so can parents with other parenting styles. Its bugged me enough that I'm sticking with natural mommy, not crunchy mommy (besides, they aren't peanut butter either....).
Another aspect of moodiness is the weeping. Oh yeah, I cry like a little girl, often. ESPECIALLY if you put a medical show on that either deals with children, infants, or birth. It also doesn't matter the age of the child. So long as they are talking about a mother or father and their child, I get weepy. This honestly just never left. After having Bella, I became more emotional about things like weddings and birth and hardships. I couldn't go a day with out watching a baby show and getting teary eyed. I started to get a bit better about it, but by May, that was over. I was back to weepiness!
There are loads of symptoms I have yet to deal with, like back pain that has nothing to do with me picking something or someone (Bella) up. Or the intense heartburn that comes with having no room for your food to work itself out in. Then there's the best symptom of all that doesn't usually cause a mommy pain but joy instead: fetal movement! I know not every mom is with me on this one because often times, baby kicks mommy in the ribs or the stomach or the bladder, but for me, it is my absolute favorite thing about pregnancy! With the annoying, pain in the butt stuff comes the wonderful, stop-in-your-tracks-and-smile stuff. Its only a matter of time until I get to re experience all of these things (most likely), but I think I'm ready for it. BRING IT ON BODY!
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Traveling with a baby
Saturday, we're going to Tulsa for a couple of days to visit friends. Now, its so close, that it doesn't make sense not to drive. BUT, how easy is driving for any length of time with an infant anyway? Well, I take Bella to my mom's a good amount and that is an hour long drive. The typical for those trips is Bella being awake for around 5-20 minutes of the drive, playing with toys and what not, then the other part she is asleep. Easy peasy! The only drive we've taken at length was in Pennsylvania and that was around a 2 and a half hour drive. No big deal really. I think I had to get in the back and feed her on the way back. Again, there was a lot of sleeping.
This time, however, is different. It's almost double the length of a trip, so Bella will need to eat probably at least once during the drive. Then there's the fact that I'm pregnant. I can't be cramped in a car for too long before I start whining about something. Bathroom, food, leg pain, back pain. Something usually comes up. So, who's gonna be more trouble: mom or baby? And how is Steve going to cope with all of this? I don't think that it will be as much trouble as I might be making it out to be, but the journey is surely going to be interesting. So, stay tuned for vacation news. Will Steve survive? How many times will we have to stop the car? Will the baby or myself whine first? And will we get to relax while there (its highly unlikely since I won't be able to just sit in a hotel, that would be a waste of my 2 and a half days with Michelle and company!)? Then there's also the fact that this is just a warm up for Disney World in August.....ugh. I think its safe to say that that trip will NOT be relaxing. But at least I'll eat like a queen.
This time, however, is different. It's almost double the length of a trip, so Bella will need to eat probably at least once during the drive. Then there's the fact that I'm pregnant. I can't be cramped in a car for too long before I start whining about something. Bathroom, food, leg pain, back pain. Something usually comes up. So, who's gonna be more trouble: mom or baby? And how is Steve going to cope with all of this? I don't think that it will be as much trouble as I might be making it out to be, but the journey is surely going to be interesting. So, stay tuned for vacation news. Will Steve survive? How many times will we have to stop the car? Will the baby or myself whine first? And will we get to relax while there (its highly unlikely since I won't be able to just sit in a hotel, that would be a waste of my 2 and a half days with Michelle and company!)? Then there's also the fact that this is just a warm up for Disney World in August.....ugh. I think its safe to say that that trip will NOT be relaxing. But at least I'll eat like a queen.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Do you have a second shower?
I've been thinking a lot lately about what's to come in the next few months. There are quite a few logistical problems that I'm going to have to tackle. For instance, how on earth am I going to grab Bella out of her crib with a big belly? Then there's also the fact that I technically can't pick her up after a few months of pregnancy. Pretty sure that that won't be happening, but I'll do my best. Then, I thought about what I'm going to do with Bella when I go to the doctor's office. The best idea I could come up with was take the stroller. I looked at my mom when she mentioned this and laughed in disbelief. I thought, "How am I gonna fit a normal size stroller in that tiny little room!? Is she nuts?" Then she suggested I take her umbrella stroller. That should fit ok, but I can't just leave her on the floor, the doctor will trip over her. She'll fall out of the chair if I sit her down. I can't hold her because the doctor needs to get to me. Then there's the carrier. No, its heavy. Not gonna happen. Stroller it is.
Out of all of these thoughts that have come up, though, one sticks out in my mind more than the rest. Do you have a party for a second baby? Especially one who will be born so close to my first. I would say yes, but that isn't really a universal belief. And if I do have a shower, how do I go about having it? I don't really have anyone near by to throw me one, which is fine. I do live in BFN north Dallas. So, I just asked my mom if we could throw a party at her house. Essentially, my mom and I threw the party. I did all of the invites and what not because she didn't know a lot of my friends and she invited a few of her friends and provided food, cake, etc. This time around it seems silly to even do that much. Its my second baby, so I shouldn't want a shower, right?
There is also the fact that it is unlikely that I will need anything for this baby anyway! I already have a ton of stuff. Especially if this baby is a girl. I won't need toys, bedding, clothes, a car seat, etc. All I really need is a second crib and a duo stroller for convenience. Even if this baby is a boy, I will need some clothes, but buying a wardrobe isn't quite as daunting as buying all of the equipment and toys that a baby needs. So where is the need for a baby shower? Well, I tell you what. Personally, why the hell would you NOT celebrate EVERY BABY! Babies are awesome and they are totally worth throwing a party for. Who cares about the presents, the baby gives you an excuse to get together with friends and say "Yay, we're having a baby! Isn't that awesome?" Cook out, talk about future plans, all the crazy things that you're about to endure! Even cooler, I heard an idea of having a gender announcement party. I thought that it would be really cool...if I had the patience to wait to tell people. Besides, some of the people I would want to invite would probably not be able to make it down anyway.
So, whether I will actually have another baby shower, I do not know. But I'm not saying it definitely won't happen. And what if it were you? Would you want another shower? Or something of the sort to celebrate the new baby?
Out of all of these thoughts that have come up, though, one sticks out in my mind more than the rest. Do you have a party for a second baby? Especially one who will be born so close to my first. I would say yes, but that isn't really a universal belief. And if I do have a shower, how do I go about having it? I don't really have anyone near by to throw me one, which is fine. I do live in BFN north Dallas. So, I just asked my mom if we could throw a party at her house. Essentially, my mom and I threw the party. I did all of the invites and what not because she didn't know a lot of my friends and she invited a few of her friends and provided food, cake, etc. This time around it seems silly to even do that much. Its my second baby, so I shouldn't want a shower, right?
There is also the fact that it is unlikely that I will need anything for this baby anyway! I already have a ton of stuff. Especially if this baby is a girl. I won't need toys, bedding, clothes, a car seat, etc. All I really need is a second crib and a duo stroller for convenience. Even if this baby is a boy, I will need some clothes, but buying a wardrobe isn't quite as daunting as buying all of the equipment and toys that a baby needs. So where is the need for a baby shower? Well, I tell you what. Personally, why the hell would you NOT celebrate EVERY BABY! Babies are awesome and they are totally worth throwing a party for. Who cares about the presents, the baby gives you an excuse to get together with friends and say "Yay, we're having a baby! Isn't that awesome?" Cook out, talk about future plans, all the crazy things that you're about to endure! Even cooler, I heard an idea of having a gender announcement party. I thought that it would be really cool...if I had the patience to wait to tell people. Besides, some of the people I would want to invite would probably not be able to make it down anyway.
So, whether I will actually have another baby shower, I do not know. But I'm not saying it definitely won't happen. And what if it were you? Would you want another shower? Or something of the sort to celebrate the new baby?
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
About a month ago, I lied...unintentionally!
A month ago, today in fact, I wrote about having more babies and when was the appropriate time to do so. WELL, little did I know that I was in fact pregnant again. I would not find out for another 4 days, but that doesn't make it any less true. I figured that once things got back on track and we could start trying again, it would take a few months. That's not uncommon for women. So I thought that maybe after the summer we'd be pregnant again. HA. Somebody had other plans. But, there's nothing wrong with that. The more I thought about it, after Bella was born, I thought that I would prefer having kids pretty close together. Like between 18 months and 2 years. That was a huge decision for me because Bella's first year has been pretty difficult so far.
When the time came to choose birth control, I told my doctor I wasn't worried about it. We figured we'd start trying to have another baby over the summer (which began 2 days ago....). She figured that's great, go for it! Well, a week after that, after visiting Melanie, an all to familiar visitor came back. Thanks for that dear :)! I thought, "Ok, now you have to be careful if you want to wait a little longer to have a baby." That didn't happen, but I still didn't think that I'd get pregnant so quickly. Once my birthday rolled around, I was supposed to get another period. It didn't come. Took a test. Negative. Waited 2 days. Nothing. Took a test. Negative. FINALLY, almost a week after I missed my period, I bought another set of tests. The first one had a faint line. I took another. Guess what? Faint line. I started to get excited. I called my doctor and told them what was going on, so they set me up for a sonogram which was today.
For the 3 weeks that followed the positive tests, I started getting nervous. Not because I was gonna have two babies 15 months apart. More because I thought something could be wrong. I had no reason to think so at the time, and I honestly haven't had any reason to think so in the past 3 weeks. But still, I stayed cautious. I decided a couple people HAD to know, so I called them. And then as I saw some people in person, we went ahead and told them as well. Now, we have a heartbeat. I'm measuring just as I thought I would be. My first OB appointment is set. I know there are no garauntees that everything will be ok until after your first trimester, but seeing the heartbeat is always a really good sign.
Anyway, I'm amazed at how fast everything is moving this time. Symptoms that I didnt get until well after 10 weeks are already making their pressence known. I had morning sickness (at night though) for the first time ever. I had a very light amount of nausea with Bella, but this time I got to a point that I couldn't eat without feeling sick. At 8 weeks, I look like I did at 15 weeks last time. Granted that's alot of bloating, but my lord, I can't wear most of my normal pants anymore! I'm still not quite as excited as I was last time, but its just nerves. I think once 13 weeks hits, I'll feel even better than I already do knowing there's a heartbeat. And then, of course, there's kicking. I think that was my favorite part of being pregnant with Bella. Of course, I never really got kicked in the ribs or anything like a lot of women do. Bella was super good in the womb, then decided it was time to stir up some "fun" when she arrived.
For now, I'm just gonna take it day by day and enjoy a whole new, yet familiar set of milestones (whenever they may come about this time).
When the time came to choose birth control, I told my doctor I wasn't worried about it. We figured we'd start trying to have another baby over the summer (which began 2 days ago....). She figured that's great, go for it! Well, a week after that, after visiting Melanie, an all to familiar visitor came back. Thanks for that dear :)! I thought, "Ok, now you have to be careful if you want to wait a little longer to have a baby." That didn't happen, but I still didn't think that I'd get pregnant so quickly. Once my birthday rolled around, I was supposed to get another period. It didn't come. Took a test. Negative. Waited 2 days. Nothing. Took a test. Negative. FINALLY, almost a week after I missed my period, I bought another set of tests. The first one had a faint line. I took another. Guess what? Faint line. I started to get excited. I called my doctor and told them what was going on, so they set me up for a sonogram which was today.
For the 3 weeks that followed the positive tests, I started getting nervous. Not because I was gonna have two babies 15 months apart. More because I thought something could be wrong. I had no reason to think so at the time, and I honestly haven't had any reason to think so in the past 3 weeks. But still, I stayed cautious. I decided a couple people HAD to know, so I called them. And then as I saw some people in person, we went ahead and told them as well. Now, we have a heartbeat. I'm measuring just as I thought I would be. My first OB appointment is set. I know there are no garauntees that everything will be ok until after your first trimester, but seeing the heartbeat is always a really good sign.
Anyway, I'm amazed at how fast everything is moving this time. Symptoms that I didnt get until well after 10 weeks are already making their pressence known. I had morning sickness (at night though) for the first time ever. I had a very light amount of nausea with Bella, but this time I got to a point that I couldn't eat without feeling sick. At 8 weeks, I look like I did at 15 weeks last time. Granted that's alot of bloating, but my lord, I can't wear most of my normal pants anymore! I'm still not quite as excited as I was last time, but its just nerves. I think once 13 weeks hits, I'll feel even better than I already do knowing there's a heartbeat. And then, of course, there's kicking. I think that was my favorite part of being pregnant with Bella. Of course, I never really got kicked in the ribs or anything like a lot of women do. Bella was super good in the womb, then decided it was time to stir up some "fun" when she arrived.
For now, I'm just gonna take it day by day and enjoy a whole new, yet familiar set of milestones (whenever they may come about this time).
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Just don't feel like talking
I've decided I'm not blogging for one more week. Not that its any big tragedy or anything, but everything I wanna talk about has something to do with stuff I don't feel like talking about yet! So until next week folks.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
I'm sorry Bella, I can't wear you all day!
I know I rant about my child a lot, but, let's face it, she is my life! Well, now I need to get out some frustration about how clingy Bella is. Most children reach a point where they want nothing more than to roll around on their own, eat their food themselves, and try to do everything on their own. For many, that starts kinda early on. For Bella, it hasn't started. She'll play if I sit there for a long period of time and try to entice her to play with me, but for the most part, she will just go bonkers when I put her down. Sometimes I worry that this is further hindering her hitting her milestones. I'm not gonna beat around the bush or sugar coat it, she is at least a month and a half behind physically. She just now started to sit up on her own for a short amount of time (and no, she cannot pull herself up to sit up).
I have already coped with that and moved on (for the most part). What I am concerned about is her inability to be alone for even a couple of minutes. It takes a lot of effort to get her to sit on her own and she won't do it for very long. I'm not adverse to holding my baby, but my God! I can't do it every waking minute of every waking hour! Besides the fact that I have back pain that is exaserbated by holding her and its really, really hot now outside! Extra body in my arms does not = cooler! So now I'm torn. What do I do? I'm not just gonna sit there and let her cry, but I also can't hold her as often as she wants if I am going to stay healthy (mentally and physically). Any suggestions?
I have already coped with that and moved on (for the most part). What I am concerned about is her inability to be alone for even a couple of minutes. It takes a lot of effort to get her to sit on her own and she won't do it for very long. I'm not adverse to holding my baby, but my God! I can't do it every waking minute of every waking hour! Besides the fact that I have back pain that is exaserbated by holding her and its really, really hot now outside! Extra body in my arms does not = cooler! So now I'm torn. What do I do? I'm not just gonna sit there and let her cry, but I also can't hold her as often as she wants if I am going to stay healthy (mentally and physically). Any suggestions?
Sunday, June 6, 2010
DAMN YOU HOT WEATHER!
Alright, summer just started and its already miserable. I'm constantly congested, its boiling outside, and I am constantly wanting a nap. To add to the chaos, cold round two has decided to attack my baby! I can only hope that it won't be like last time. Throwing up is no fun for baby.
So what do I do to combat this evil summer? Obviously, I am staying inside is my number one priority. Its fine to get out every once in a while, but not for very long. I am also downing ice water like my life depended on it. In reality, it kind of does. But the ice water is probably the greatest thing ever. I also end up walking around the house with as little clothing as possible without being in just a bra and panties. This is not something I would normally do if I were to go out because I do NOT want anyone seeing me in short shorts or a tank top (for the most part).
I really, really like the winter, and, no matter how many times my mom talks about hating the snow and not being able to have a safe drive in winter weather, I am kinda deadset on moving north one day in the somewhat near future. I need cold. I really need cold. If you think about it, it is far easier to keep warm than it is to cool off. You can only take off so much to keep the hot weather at bay, but you can pile the clothes on until you can hardly move if you'd like! So, if you can't find me, that would be because I am hiding in my daughter's room, the only room in the house that gets really cold. I'll be sprawled out on the floor, contemplating pouring my ice water directly on me.
So what do I do to combat this evil summer? Obviously, I am staying inside is my number one priority. Its fine to get out every once in a while, but not for very long. I am also downing ice water like my life depended on it. In reality, it kind of does. But the ice water is probably the greatest thing ever. I also end up walking around the house with as little clothing as possible without being in just a bra and panties. This is not something I would normally do if I were to go out because I do NOT want anyone seeing me in short shorts or a tank top (for the most part).
I really, really like the winter, and, no matter how many times my mom talks about hating the snow and not being able to have a safe drive in winter weather, I am kinda deadset on moving north one day in the somewhat near future. I need cold. I really need cold. If you think about it, it is far easier to keep warm than it is to cool off. You can only take off so much to keep the hot weather at bay, but you can pile the clothes on until you can hardly move if you'd like! So, if you can't find me, that would be because I am hiding in my daughter's room, the only room in the house that gets really cold. I'll be sprawled out on the floor, contemplating pouring my ice water directly on me.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Oh Backpain
My back is killing me. I'm about at the point that I can't take it anymore. Bella isn't that big or anything but she's still getting the best of me! I am avoiding all pain medications for the time being, so I have to find a new solution.
I thought "Ok, let's go get a message!" HAHA, if I had the money to just say that and it be true then maybe I'd consider that an option. I've also thought heating pads but I don't know how much I trust it. I'm definitley not gonna use IcyHot, as much as I've loved it in the past.
No, I am looking for a more hollistic solution to this problem. So, I am asking YOU what your solution would be! Whatever will take the edge off the pain that I don't have to buy. I'm attempting to save money. If there is a food or some weird combination of household items that might help, please enlighten me! I need relief!!!!!!!!!!
I thought "Ok, let's go get a message!" HAHA, if I had the money to just say that and it be true then maybe I'd consider that an option. I've also thought heating pads but I don't know how much I trust it. I'm definitley not gonna use IcyHot, as much as I've loved it in the past.
No, I am looking for a more hollistic solution to this problem. So, I am asking YOU what your solution would be! Whatever will take the edge off the pain that I don't have to buy. I'm attempting to save money. If there is a food or some weird combination of household items that might help, please enlighten me! I need relief!!!!!!!!!!
